Lately I've had a hard time expressing myself. When I feel the need to speak a very loud opinion or tell someone to mind their own dang business I tend to just swallow it down and not say anything at all, especially when it comes to how I parent.
How do you tell someone that they had their shot and to leave you alone to figure things out.
How do you tell someone that your so called "baby" is not that anymore and she's turning into a tantrum throwing toddler, a fate that can be stopped if you're allowed to parent in the way you want to?
How do you tell someone that you don't mind it when the baby cries during a nap because that means she hasn't had enough sleep and you want to wait until she's making happy baby noises before going in to get her?
HOW DO YOU TELL SOMEONE TO JUST LEAVE THE PARENTING OF YOUR CHILD TO YOU?!?
I can't say what I want to say.
So I end up burying these hurtful emotions in me and I can't help but feel emotionally drained and exhausted. I'm hardly ever happy anymore because I have to suppress these unhealthy emotions.
And then ... someone tells you that if you just get your act together then you might not have to deal with it all the time like I do ...
Then you wonder if you've ever really had your act together ...
Have you ever really felt whole and complete ...
And more importantly if you have ...
Will you ever feel that way again?
Should I start to say what I want to say?
Should I be brave?
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